pelvicfloordysfunction

DEFEATED

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So last week I told you a little bit about my journey and life of having pelvic floor dysfunction and being disrespected in the healthcare system. I also mentioned to you about my journey to becoming a pelvic floor physical therapist myself. 

I started my first job fresh out of Doctorate of Physical Therapy school in 2016. I was excited, nervous, but I was SO READY to change the lives of so many women who were suffering silently.  

I started to treat in Orthopedics (shoulder, knee, back, hip, foot, etc.) until I was able to go to my courses that would allow me to treat pelvic floor dysfunction.  

On my first day of my first course, I was so conflicted with the fact that I had not learned about these techniques, treatments, or methods until now! I was upset that I had no knowledge of these treatments all the way through my doctoral program. 

I became OBSESSED.  

Then I realized that the healthcare model is not equipped for my dreams and ambitions. 

I got my training and was seeing 2-3 patients per hour. 

I was not getting paid much money, I paid a lot for school and could not pay for my living expenses. 

But most importantly. My patients were being IGNORED in the healthcare system. The complaint of incontinence or peeing your pants was considered NORMAL. It was considered to be something that "just happens." My patients were being told their pain and their dysfunctions were in their head and they needed to remember it was normal. 

I was disgusted. I was working SO hard to see my 20+ patients a day, to help them, to make them feel loved, listened to, cared for....that.... 

I burnt out and got very sick. I ended up getting so sick that I was in and out of the hospital due to the stress of the job for about 3 months.  

It's amazing how things can change in an instance. My husband and I thought I was looking at my last days as a physical therapist and potentially my last days living... 

Now I realized I had to make a HUGE move and I'll tell you about it in the following blog..... 

Look out for my blog next week with the subject line, "Dr. Kaylee Makes a Move."  

Love, 

Dr. Kaylee 

The Beginning of the Journey!

I want to thank you for being a part of my community and family again and for the support you give by reading each of these for me. 

I want to let you in to my story because my story makes me who I am today... and if you're going to have a pelvic floor physical therapist as a provider, you want to have someone that you can relate with. 

I have a 20 year history of being a dancer. I always wanted to be a professional dancer. I dreamed of it, I could taste it. But at the age of 15 my dreams were crushed by the fact that I (please understand this is extremely difficult to be letting you know) was raped. This traumatic event led me to having urinary incontinence and I would pee my pants any time I danced or I was active. I also had pelvic pain, consistent urinary tract infections, and frequent constipation because I had so much pain.  

These symptoms caused me to be so embarrassed about my condition that I would skip dance practice, I would stop trying out for the harder roles, I was just not able to reach my personal best. I was so embarrassed, I was disgusted, I was overwhelmed, I felt guilty and was so full of shame, I had no positive feelings or things to say about myself. 

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I went until I was about 25 years old (that is 10 years) of dealing with these symptoms. At that point, I was in a doctorate program to become a physical therapist and had no idea pelvic floor physical therapy existed. I went to a clinician and watched how it worked and realized I had a MASSIVE desire to exercise without peeing myself and to have sex without pain, get rid of the pelvic pain all together. I also realized I have a desire to help other women suffering silently. 

I finally went to a healthcare provider, who told me to see a counselor for my "concerns" about pain and leakage. I was observing other pelvic floor physical therapists who would hook their patients up to some machine for 15 minutes. I was running into a road block for my dream of becoming symptoms free.  

Remember how I wanted to help women and help myself? Well, I was being told I'm crazy and it couldn't be done. I was told by other pelvic floor therapists that "this is just how it's done." I felt extremely defeated.  

Next week, I'll have another blog on how this led me finding my own answers and creating the business I have today. Be on the lookout for subject line, "DEFEATED." 

See you next week! 

Love, 

Dr. Kaylee