I want to thank you for being a part of my community and family again and for the support you give by reading each of these for me.
I want to let you in to my story because my story makes me who I am today... and if you're going to have a pelvic floor physical therapist as a provider, you want to have someone that you can relate with.
I have a 20 year history of being a dancer. I always wanted to be a professional dancer. I dreamed of it, I could taste it. But at the age of 15 my dreams were crushed by the fact that I (please understand this is extremely difficult to be letting you know) was raped. This traumatic event led me to having urinary incontinence and I would pee my pants any time I danced or I was active. I also had pelvic pain, consistent urinary tract infections, and frequent constipation because I had so much pain.
These symptoms caused me to be so embarrassed about my condition that I would skip dance practice, I would stop trying out for the harder roles, I was just not able to reach my personal best. I was so embarrassed, I was disgusted, I was overwhelmed, I felt guilty and was so full of shame, I had no positive feelings or things to say about myself.
I went until I was about 25 years old (that is 10 years) of dealing with these symptoms. At that point, I was in a doctorate program to become a physical therapist and had no idea pelvic floor physical therapy existed. I went to a clinician and watched how it worked and realized I had a MASSIVE desire to exercise without peeing myself and to have sex without pain, get rid of the pelvic pain all together. I also realized I have a desire to help other women suffering silently.
I finally went to a healthcare provider, who told me to see a counselor for my "concerns" about pain and leakage. I was observing other pelvic floor physical therapists who would hook their patients up to some machine for 15 minutes. I was running into a road block for my dream of becoming symptoms free.
Remember how I wanted to help women and help myself? Well, I was being told I'm crazy and it couldn't be done. I was told by other pelvic floor therapists that "this is just how it's done." I felt extremely defeated.
Next week, I'll have another blog on how this led me finding my own answers and creating the business I have today. Be on the lookout for subject line, "DEFEATED."
See you next week!