I want to touch base on something that most people do not like to speak about…the dreaded word…STRESS. First and foremost, as you know from a previous post, it’s been a tough week. Today just made that tough week even tougher. My stress has definitely been in the highest ranges I’ve had in a long time. If you know me, you know I live for others. I try to make sure everyone else is alright. I put everyone before myself. Whoever said when it rains it pours is a freaking genius. Because that’s exactly what’s happening.
Interestingly enough, I have not had cravings yet on this diet until today. This tells me one thing. I rely on food to soothe my emotions. Why in the world does that make sense??? Why not exercise, or reading, or meditating? I definitely want to change this.
I also noted that with high stress, my anxiety increases, and I bite my nails. That’s disgusting. I have been trying to stop this for as long as I can remember, but when I’m stressed it happens. I cannot seem to control some of what it does. This was intensified today with the sugar cravings.
Not all of what I’ve noticed has been negative though. There were more positives with my ability to tolerate stress than negatives actually.
I noticed when I’m highly stressed, and eating right, I actually know what I feel. Typically when I have high stress, I cannot determine what my feelings are and I am all over the place. But this time, I know. I know what needs to be done, how I need to react and how I need to handle it.
I am also able to control my next step. Before, I was out of control. I’d eat, I’d cry, I’d pace, you name it I probably tried it. But this past week I’ve been able to not turn to food and actually control my emotions by writing, meditating, or whatever I had at my fingertips.
The moral of this post is to remind you that food changes things. If you do not eat right, you cannot expect to feel right. When life hits you with bricks, and you are eating no nutrients and all fast foods, your mind won’t make the best decisions and you won’t feel up to trying or doing anything about it. You will have more risk of falling into the sadness and depression. Trust me, I’ve been there. I’m able to have some more control than I have had previously with trauma. I am excited to continue with this new me and see how I can handle life. Because, let’s face it. There will ALWAYS be trials, but they are meant to make you stronger.